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[14 Sep 2009|11:05pm] |
i had to take a second glance at you today. i don't even recognize the person you're becoming. i begged you to look deep inside yourself and realize what you wanted and yet you still can't even tell me. i dont know how i've made it all these broken promised months. i keep putting myself out there for you and you keep blowing it. i've given you practically every ounce of my heart, and you juss throw it back in my face, you're killing me and i dont think i can make it out alive this time. cause this time its do or die. i'm at my limits and my heart is about to break.
fight for whats yours.
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[11 Sep 2009|11:02pm] |
i came to the realization today that i'm no longer sure of anything. my future, the one that i had set in stone for us, is now a blurry vision that i can't seem to clear up. you said you'd change, you said things would get better, and yet you said a lot of things and everything is still the same. nothing and i mean nothing has changed about you. i thought you had it in you to become a better person and shape up, but i must have given you too much credit. you're weak and you know it and now, so do i. i keep giving you the benefit of the doubt, hoping you can make things better, even when everyone doubted us. but it looks like i should have listen to them all along, cause they were right. you won't ever change, you won't ever see what i want you to see, you wont ever make me your first priority, i'm second best to you and to you, thats okay. you've come so low that drugs are more important to you than me. you said "i've juss been really busy lately". too busy for me. which means, too much drugs and partying and girls to pick up the phone, scroll down to my name and type "i love you" real quick juss to let me know you're at least thinking about me. i don't think i can do this any longer. i know i said forever, forever its me and you, but forever seems impossible when its juss me. i'm fighting to keep someone who can't even fight a tiny bit to keep me around. how can you help me through everything when you can't even help yourself ? you're loosing sight of what's truly important and i wont stand around to wait for you to wake up and see its been right infront of your face along. i'll say goodbye and move on without a second look back because i know i put my heart and everything into you, but you, i hope you kick yourself in the ass and finally realize that it was me that you've been looking for. but i hope you find someone else that makes you happy because i guess i can't do that for you anymore. so for now, i''m walking away, alone, because i can't keep this love alive.
you know that i love you so, i love you enough to let you go.
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[01 Jul 2009|10:00pm] |
"everything that seemed so important to me, now seems like nothing i've known. your face, your voice, the way you said those the three breathe taking words, are all juss fond memories i use to hold dear to my heart. but for now, i've let those things slip away from me. can't even recall the last time you told me how much i meant to you, guess its easy to not say it when the feelings aren't there, or just a slippage as you might call it. but you see, the thiing is, i look back to the time were everything was what'd i'd call perfect, and miss those days.
somethiings are harder to let go than others. for me, you are a walking example."
. . . everything you once made me feel, now to me, is complete utter bullshit. you're the only person i know that can make my heart skip a beat and have it crushed within the same moment. like damn boy that must be a talent of yours. you're nothing of what i want in my life. you've changed and baby it isn't for the better. you've lost complete sight of everything you once believe in and the things that once seemed to be your whole life, aren't the bit of slightest importance. but guess what, you won't bring me down, no not today. things are changing and i need to realize you aren't the person that made me see things in a different view. the one person that meant more than the world to me, no longer exists. i don't even know that person anymore, and to my relief i dont think i want to. have fun with your immature ways and i hope a girl does what you did to me. i'm saving my time and energy for things that not even matter more to me but things and people that are gunna treat me better than you ever did on your best days cause even on those rare occasions, you weren't shit. so this is my good-bye to your bullshit ways and MY refresh that doesn't involve you in it.
i pulled myself out of the water; i'm no longer drowning.
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[15 Jun 2009|11:42pm] |
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after a year and a half of not seeing you and you're still the biggest brat i've ever met. most awkward reunion of my life. this is what i've been waiting for and put myself through hell and back? fuhhhhhhhthat. jokes on me, right?
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[20 Dec 2008|01:01am] |
funny how things can change with a single phone call. it just only reassured me how much of a complete ass you are and how much you've changed. you aren't the same person that swept me off my feet a year ago. you're different. your attitude, your out look on life, what use to be important to you like, me & your so called "bestfriends" seem to no longer exist in your new life, everything has changed, even the way you talk. you're no longer what i use to call, mine. all that has remained the same is your face, but i'm sure that thats changed as well. i cant keep telling myself things are going to be okay and get better. i need to wake up from this dream and realize its a nightmare. wake up vivianna, shit isnt going to get better, and guess what, history repeats itself and youre going to keep doing what you always do. but i'm sorry, you're through fucking with me. go mess around with other girls, and tell them that they are "the one" causee honey, its what youre best at. forever ended when you stopped caring, and tonight i realized what you've become, and its not what i want anymore. so take youre sshit somewhere else, you're no longer my life. i can breathe better without you.
i surrender.
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[09 Nov 2008|12:13am] |
from anxiously waiting to hang out with you friday after school, so waiting 8 long miserable months to see your beautiful face, kills me. i honestly couldn't tell you how i've survived these past couple months. it seems like the days go longer and just talking to you through text doesn't help anymore. i need to see your face. i need that comfort that i find so deeply in your hugs. i miss every part of you. miss waiting till the lunch bell would ring just so i could walk over to where you were so you could walk me to my fifth period class, cause spending those 5 minutes together made my day onehundred times better. miss begging you to see the natitivty set with me and you always shooting down my ideas. i miss the way you hugged me you, you know the sense of security that i felt with you arms around, it felt like home to me, like the perfect moment. everytime i think about the night that you pulled out of the drive, makes me sick to my stomache. i can still picture that day as it was yesterday, and still feel the aweful hurting pain that shoots in my stomache. i miss talking to you everyday, and you listening to me complain about everything. it seems like so much has changed over the year, that we arent the same people anymore. our relationship has changed, but my love for you, will never. you make me the happiestgirl in the world, and you have no clue.i pray to god that you love me like you say you do but who really knows. you're my everything that i need in life. my bestfriend, boyfriend, my world. i want to spend the everyday from now until i die with you. you mean too much to me. can't wait till i see your beautiful face this winter break. until then, my heart breaks. i miss you too much
ass long as i'm living papa, my baby you'lll be.
till the stars stop shinning. 12.16.07<3
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[21 Apr 2007|11:45am] |
just cause youre cute you honestly think you can get with every girl, sorry boy ill prove you wrong.
effyou
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[24 Oct 2006|02:51pm] |
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i love seeing you in the halls
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[30 Apr 2006|10:32am] |
im so done with you.
goodbye
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[22 Apr 2006|01:52pm] |
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boy, you're just a waste of my time.
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[01 Jan 2005|09:59pm] |
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hey ya'll havent updated in awhile... hopefullly everyone had an awesome christmas, i knoe mine was pretty kewl. spent the day after christmas with mah awesomest cousin alexx in las vegas. me and mah sister wanted to go to chip n dales but we couldnt get past the folks, ehh maybe next year. new years was fun.. watched "Law and Order" best tv show EVER! and then watched home videos. lil kidds next door got pots and pans and started banging them outside mah door so mah dad joined..wat a kid! im out x0x0x muah shorty
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[18 Dec 2004|02:30pm] |
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heyy! well yesterday i went to the movie with alissa, chelsea, jamie, tori, breanne, and blake..me and aliss watch that movie were there is a map on the bak of the decleration of indepence, yah forgot the name of it haha.and they others went to watch oceans 12 which they said sucked even thoe brad pitt is in it, ugh major hottie! ima marry him ,he just doesnt knoe it yet. well chris left to wisconsin today, upset/sad cuz i didnt get to see him! .:.tears.:. ugh i miss him so much and its only been a day! well im out gunna go to meh brotha all-star game.
♥[shorty]♥
♥_chris i love u and miss u soo much, come bak home soon and safe!_♥
♥16 more dayz till i see chris!!!♥
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[14 Dec 2004|03:34pm] |
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hey yall havent updated in a while!! well adam is in london and is spending christmas there with his daddy(not like it would effect him, hes jewish).. well this break is gunna suck, besides the fact that me and Brittani and Erin and Angela are totally gunna hang out, becuz Chris is going to wisconsin..¿wtf? why wisconsin?c'mon! haha jk i love u babe! chris, u better not fall in love with sum random chick there, mk? hopefully u wont! well im outta here!
X0xoXOxoXo
♥[Miss_V]♥
ps..what yall asking santa for christmas? l0l, i already got wat i wanted!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥
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[06 Dec 2004|03:40pm] |
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hey ya'll...sorry i havent updated in a while..well latley its been the same, being bored and doing nuthing (lazy ass me)Well saturday was a lot of fun. i went to Kyles and hung out with kyle chris, aliss borsuk, chelsea (kyles sister) and chelseas friend shawna.. we watched secert window with jonny deep , wow that movie was kinda strange! ehh but i had a blast anyways! alissa i love u kid! thanks for being there for me! i am so fond of our inside jokes! chris.. i had a great time with u! that was great when u couldnt get comfortable w0w just take the damn pants off why dont ya! and meh dear sweet lil kyle! i love u kidd! ur the best.. and i liked how u like totally raped me upstairs wow it was the best.. l0l i love ya ..well im outta hurr, gonna go hang out with meh gansta sister Genessa! wow...bye
♥[miss V]♥
jusTin ♥'s gEnessa
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[24 Nov 2004|08:47pm] |
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hey yall! im with meh lover who i adore, alissa! ya thats rite biotch. wut now? ya boys suck the BIG one.u know wat they say "sumtimes u just gotta bite the pickel"! Today i went to the middle skewl and hung out with meh homies! then went to kyles house and hung out with kyle, chirs, me, alissa, and ryan.. whooo partay! eeee yay! thats wat i call fun stuff! well im outa hurr! o btw jakes an asshole! i love u brittani! ♥[shorty]♥
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[23 Nov 2004|05:10pm] |
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<3in love with someone. but not telling who!<3
me and ryan murry are bFf!
david, i love the 6 pack!
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[09 Nov 2004|07:49pm] |
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hmm im thinking bout changing meh livejournal name..but idk what i should change it to. anybody got any suggestions?
♥aDam pRice is The seXieSt Mahn oN thiS plaNet!♥
i love yew babe!!!
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[01 Nov 2004|09:02am] |
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yesterday was halloween...it was pretty fun i guess! hung out with alissa jake john and his cousin, korey blake and chris martines and then CHARLIE showed up, that was fun.. well im out nuthing else to say! o yah HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEENAN!
I L♥vE ChRis!!!!!!
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[29 Oct 2004|07:56pm] |
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HeY! wow im so bored and i have a huge headache!! ouch!! yah so i just came bak from the moorpark jv game..we won psshh 21-39 (i think that was the score) ya so watcha yall being fo haloween? i*d*k yet! i'll just do a last minute thing like i always do..haha the slacker that i am. o well i do wat i can! alrite HAPPY HALOWEEN to all yall..be safe, dont drink and drive cuz u mite spill ur drink, and wear a seltbelt and o yah angela dont do anyting with TIMMY taht i wouldnt do (hint hint) heehee i love u babe tennis today was awesome! and roxanna and jessica and erin and the other angela! wow tennis rocks! haha brittani in pics today..wow that was sum hott stuf yo! alrite im out..peace ♥shawtay
ps. good job jv boys!!! i l♥ve yew DaViD, SeRgIo, ChArLiE and i suppose meh other amigo AdAm haha jk i love ya'll... adam ur a goat and david im not a turtle and i dont do turtle weed..or wait maybe i do!! ♥♥♥♥♥
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[16 Oct 2004|12:08pm] |
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ahhh today is homecoming! wow yesterday was so much fun at the football game! blake asked out alissa h! ahhh they're so cute 2gether! congrats!♥♥ i feel ♥ in the air! heehee. ya so i dont knoe wat im doing fo dinner tonite o well i'll just go with the flow! wow ima look so ugly in meh h.c dress heehee. hmm yah im not going with any1 im flying solo cuz im kewl like dat! any1 who flys solo as well is meh idol! well i gosta go get ready!bye! ♥shortay
ps. great j♥b jv boys! charlie. adam, david & meh lovely sergio! haha i l♥ve ya'll!!!!!
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